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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
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11:33 pm - Kenzi
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Some people can be so hypocritical and rude sometimes. It just amazes me how we can treat other people without any consideration at all.. and most of the time they're strangers! I was just reading livejournal and all these anonymous people kept posting crude comments making fun or just being rude to the writers. First of all, anonymous snonymous! If you're going to say something crude or conroversial to someone you don't know, you better have the balls to say you wrote it because what's that point? Just saying it's "anonymous" just makes you look pssy because you don't have the guts t stand up an say you made that comment. It only causes more drama which no one ever needs, especially livejournal and is just stupid. So whoever mde up anonymous.. good riddens.
Oh, by the way, I love you and miss you all and i think we should go see Shrek 2!
P.S. I haven't had the internet for like months and haven't had anything to say until now so it wasn't like i hated you i was just unable to post because of lack of internet and interesting speech to share.
That is all.
current mood:  disappointed
current music: jessica simpson don't ask me why, i hate her!
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| Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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8:23 pm - CHOCOLATE AND VANILLA TWIST
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So i haven't updated in years, and i know you all forgot about me... but tonight i feel the need.
I've been so focused on some many things at once that i never had time to actually think how my hard work would pay off. There's a part of me that feels proud for what i've accomplished this year so far....getting cast as Viola, getting my license (hip hip pussaaaaay!), and getting paid $100 for reffing soccer, all in one week! I'm still shocked and suprised and scared and excited for all of it, but i can't seem to enjoy it.
The other part of me misses everything that was genuine, like 6 year friendships... and i hate the feeling of miss.
I know i always say that you're not... but i know you are, because if you set your mind on something, eventually you'll get it whether you want to or not (haha). I guess i never accepted it because i didn't want to. Now that i have to it's hard for me to picture it, not that you couldn't fit in anywhere and everywhere. Everyone who has left has changed in someway, good and bad, and i miss them. You know how much i hate missing people!!! I just don't want to have to miss you too. I always thought we'd be the ones to stay, and now that you're not it makes me think that sooner or later there will be nothing of our young friendships, and that's what keeps me together. This is me being dramatic i know, but i don't want you to go!!! This sucks.
I wish missing people could just be erased from our human feeling.
current mood: melancholy
current music: phantom planet
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| Thursday, April 10th, 2003
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7:48 pm - CALLING STARLIGHT!!!
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Ashley Spencer, where have you been all my life? I got a lil' song for ya.....
"Have you seen my girl?
She's the one with the curly hair
She was sitting just right over there, now she's no where to be found
I think she's mad at me
I don't know why
Maybe because I made her cry
When I told I was done....."
Awww good times in Good person, remember?
We need to hang out my friend!!!!
current mood:  cranky
current music: something from Americna Pie
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| Thursday, January 16th, 2003
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12:07 am - "Walmart is like God's way of making poor people feel rich"
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| Tuesday, January 14th, 2003
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12:23 pm - "I must remember this feeling and use it in my acting"
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How long has it been since i last updated? years i think..... i just thought i'd give all the livejournalers a holla, and feel free to holla back (woooo woooo!) Who ever thought of a teachers rally in Olympia is a genuis, and who ever invented late days is a genuis too! I'm sure i can think of a million others, but right now those are at the top of my list.
This morning i woke up and felt the need to be productive... usually i just lollygag around the house and watch TV until i get too bored and have to do something. But today i got up, ate a healthy breakfast with no TV, and started to clean my room! Now i have plenty of time left to go shopping with Riley :)
Read this adorable quote that Maeve found...
"I ran up the door, closed the stairs, said my pajamas, and put on my prayers. Turned off the bed, and hopped into the light, all because you kissed me good night~"
I wish it was summer.... so that i wouldn't have to worry smelly school, and i could have all the time in the world to do what i want. of course i'd have a car and license by this summer so it would be even better...
The beach sounds so good right now.
Ya know what doesn't sound good? Winter formal... people insist on making it a stressful thing when really it's supposed to be fun but you can't have fun if people are stressing out about dates and money and i tried so hard to not get stressed but now i am because there is no time!!!!! i wish it was summer so badly.
i better get back to being productive! nice to be back....
current mood:  bouncy
current music: "The hardest to learn"- Indigo Girls
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| Monday, August 12th, 2002
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11:50 pm - LUCK WAS ON OUR SIDE TONIGHT
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You would think that tonight was going to be just one of those fun night with a few of your friends...going to coffee, listening to music and hanging out at the Alicia Keys concert... but you would never guess that we would WIN TICKETS TO IT!!!!!!!! How you ask? Well I'll tell you...
Z100's stand was giving out raffle tickets to each person, then ramdomly picking one and giving them free tickets... well luck happened and Jen's raffle ticket number was called!!! The only problem was they came in pairs, and we had three people :(... big problem. If only they had a dancing contest, then Spenser could win us tickets you think... well luck happpened AGAIN and they annouced a dancing contest and whoever is voated the best gets concert tickets. There was no doubt Spenser would win (which he did), and we all went to the Alicia Keys concert free! No joke! We've got friends to prove it...that is if your too baffled to believe me.
We were all still hyped by the time the concert started, and the minute she walked on the stage we knew how lucky we were to see her. She was AMAZING!!! I got shivers when she sang "Caged Bird", "Women's Worth" was incredible and everything including the set and dancers was fabulous...I still can't believe it! And just think if we hadn't gotten to the Rose Garden at the time we did, we'd all be sulking at home by now wishing that we'd bought tickets earlier. Lordy Lordy...
Total count of free things tonight: 4 concert tickets, 2 pops, 1 CD, and a Z100 keychain
I had the best time of my life tonight
current mood: ecstatic
current music: "Falling"-Alicia Keys
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| Thursday, August 8th, 2002
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5:17 pm - "CALIFORNIA DREAMIN"
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I've been in California for what, like 4 days now and I can't believe how much stuff I've done...and I'm going to do a lot more until Saturday! Why Saturday when it was originally Thursday? Well my luck with airports hasn't been so good latley...no, it's sucked and frankly I don't want to deal with it again! I had to get up too early for my ONLY AVAILABLE FLIGHT home to be cancelled, my aunt Cara to be going camping until Sunday, and my aunt Carol in Santa Cruz to be going to a giants game. I was stranded in the Oakland Airport calling back and forth between relatives trying to find a place to go, and ,y last resort was to take a door-to-door shuttle 1 1/2 houts to Carol's house, and I did not want to do that but it was the only thing I could do. Thank God someone was on our side because luckily my aunt Cara ran into an old friend and didn't leave the waiting area! She took me home, I helped her and a friend Tracy pack up for camping, and here I am, all by my lonesome in Tracy's huge house having a blast playing with all her electronic toys after an exhuasting day at the airport.
This trip has been quite the adventure, and due to full flights I'm not coming home until Saturday afternoon. That would be sad if I wasn't going surfing again tommorrow, and if the weather here wasn't absolutley fabulous.
"Oooo burn...ya need some sunscreen for that burn?"
Nevertheless, everything reminds of my friends back home, and this trip would be so much better if they all were here :(. I mean can you believe that there's a store in Santa Cruz called "Good Times"? How cool is that??? BUT! As soon as I get back, there are parties to plan, fairs to go to, and summer traditions to continue!
Now I must attend to my packing since I made a mess of myself trying to fit in all this cool stuff before I have to leave, but you all have a great time and I'll talk to you when I get back!
current mood:  hot
current music: "Leavin on a jet plane"-Bjork
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| Monday, August 5th, 2002
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5:34 am - SURFIN' USA
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It's 5:30 in the morning and I'm about to leave for California for some SURFING!!!! I'd be more excited if it wasn't so early, or I wasn't so tired... but at least I get to see Ashley before I leave!!! I haven't seen her in forever, and just by coincidence her flight for New York leaves at around the same time! So we're gonna hook up, say our hello's, say our goodbye's then go our own ways. I guess it's kinda of bittersweet, but seeing ashley is always a good thing :) Well I get back Thursday morning and I have some planning to do!! (Anna, Jen, Riley)
well I'm off!!! Don't have too much fun without me!!... naw j/k have as much fun as you want.. bye!
current mood: energetic
current music: haha energetic.... that's a good one!
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| Thursday, August 1st, 2002
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2:00 pm - FRIENDS, PLEASE COME HOME :(
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I'm having friend withdrawls and it's making me very sad.... I need my buddies!!! Hopefully when everyone gets back (which will be never) we can all go see Austin Powers 3 then spend the night somewhere (maybe my house?). I'll call all ya'lls to confirm the date. Cuz I miss all my buddies so much! :(
On a lighter note, my plans to go surfing with my aunt are final... seems like I'll be gone from the 5th to the 8th cruzin on the waves! That should be something to watch haha.
I almost peed my pants watching American Idol last night... can you believe that Justin was one of the three who had the least amount of votes?!?!?! I was totally stunned! Thank God he was safe, but Holy Lord! And who let Niki still be in the contest? She should've been out a long time ago, but for some reason she was safe! Whoever let that happen was on something. But I realized something when the were talking the three who had the least amount of votes... The entire time Simon and Paula kept saying things like, "the song choice is SO important" (and it is), but with Kelly, it doesn't matter which song she picks because she will ALWAYS sound good because her voice is amazing, and that's why she has never been up there. And that's when I decided she was my favorite.
and yes I know I am obssessed with that show... well I say, just let it be.
Random note of the day: I slept in till 12:30 yesterday (which hasn't happened in a while) and it felt so incredibly good, to waste the day away sleeping.
Maybe I should update when I actually have something interesting to say...haha
current mood:  lazy
current music: my bored sighs...:::sigh::
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| Tuesday, July 30th, 2002
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11:07 pm - "I'VE GOT A NEW ATTITUDE!"
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American Idol, why are you so good to me? I believe I still stand next to my top 3 (Justin,Kelly, Taymera), but it's gonna be a hard decison.
"Cranberry Queen" by Kathleen DeMarco... good book.... go get it.... now
My days are filled with nothing, just lenghtend waiting for something to happen. Anything. All my plans fall through, and I keep thinking of how much fun I'm not having.... and should be :( and that ladies and gentlmen would be my expression session. Thank you for your time. haha.
I need an idol......... well first i need a life, but once i get one next on my list would be an idol!
"Nobody's Fool"
by Avril Lavigne
Fall back, take a look at me and you'll see
I'm for real, I'll feel what only I can feel
And if that don't appeal to ya let me know
And I'll go cause I flow better when my colors show
And that's the way it has to be honestly
Cause creativity could never bloom in my room
I'd throw it all away before I'd lie so don't call me with a compromise
Hang up the phone I got a back bone stronger that yours
If you're trying to tun into someone else it's easy to see
I'm not down with that, I'm nobody's fool
If you're trying to turn me into something else
I've seen it enough and I'm over that
I'm not nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down.. go ahead and try!
Don't know you think you know me like yourself
But I fear that you're only telling me what I want to hear
Do you give a damn? Understand that I can't not be what I am
I'm not the milk and cher in your spoom it's not a simple
here we go not so soon
I might of fallen for that when I was 14 and a little more green
But it's amazing what a couple of years can mean
Go ahead and try
Try to look me in the eye
Go ahead and try
Try to look me in the eye
But you'll never see inside
Until you realize..
Things are trying to settle down
Just trying to figure out
Exactly what I'm about
If it's with or without you
I don't need your doubt in me
Someday someone will notice me
current mood:  gloomy
current music: "Arms wide open"-Creed
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| Monday, July 29th, 2002
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12:04 pm - I'M HOME!!!
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well I was home yesterday, but you didn't know that did you? You also didn't know that I was in L.A. for 4 days and had a blast at Universal Studios, Venice Beach and Manhattan Beach. But what you couldn't know but really want to know is that on the Jurassic Park ride in Universal, we saw Monica Potter from Patch Adams, Along came a spider, and Head over heels!!! No joke! I have a picture to prove it thank you very much, and I bet you definatley didn't know that!
I haven't seen my friends in a while and I'm starting to get very lonley :( I've been hanging out with my mom alot which is ok, but after a while you start thinking..."I must be such a lozer"... well because I am, but I feel like it now. Speaking of lozer, Lozer Buddy!!! Sorry i didn't call you last night, I got your message really late and I was sooo tired. But I'll call you today I promise! Are you thinking what I'm thinking...? Toys R US with camera? I think so!
I think my new look for the school year is gonna be high waters, thick glasses and a pocket protecter... because yes, I am a lozer.
goodbye.
current mood:  geeky
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| Wednesday, July 24th, 2002
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2:44 pm - YA HOORAY!
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| Monday, July 22nd, 2002
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11:18 pm - It's 11:19pm, and I'm not even tired
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It's been a productive day:
Got up early enough to do my chores (what a concept!), cleaned my room, went to the mall with Riley and Dylan (boy do I have stories to tell), went swimming in the "LukeLac" (so refreshing) then came home and ate din din with the fam! It's been fun, and I plan to have fun until I got to Universal Studios on Thursday.....so that means bigtime sleepover!! And that's all I have to say about that.
I have mixed feelings about the show "meet the folks", but i would never volenteer to do that! Not that i have anything to hide...i'm just not gonna go there. 'nough said.
hey, nothing's changed...i still support you, and i'll try to spend as much time with you as normal, but i hope as your "figuring out your life" that you know that i'm speaking for all of us when i say that. Best of luck to ya...and don't forget about us ;)
i missed you alot last night maeve...i wanted you to be there when we went bowling, cuz it was all the brunettes minus you and ashley... sad day! come home now!!!
I haven't seen you in a while, and I would like to change that
k now i'm getting tired, and i'm starting to not make sense.... i guess that's my cue to get to bed. Night!
current mood:  sleepy
current music: "Sweater"-Weezer
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| Sunday, July 21st, 2002
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12:13 pm - "...SO! YO! HO! WHOOOOO!"
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Fun days past... long days ahead
This past few days have been a blast!! I went to CGST with Riley to stay with Michael for a few days, and may I say good times?!?!?! We did a song and dance for the camper's last Coffee house, slept on the deck underneath the stars, watched rehearsals, got scared by rattle snakes, helped Micheal with all his chores, and met tons of fun new people! I'm considering going there for a week next summer. Then Saturday was dedicated to my momma...pampering her like a little baby. We took her out, gave her a massage, got a manicure and pedicure (along with me and my aunt), then took her to Janey's house for her 50ith suprise party. Sooo many of my relatives were there, it was really fun! You'd be amazed at what a wonderful life she had...you could never tell by looking at her now. You would think that I would be exhausted from all this fun... BUT NO!!! We had a girls night out for Amanda's birthday, and went Cosmic Bowling until 1:00 in the morning!! We had the best time!! Too bad Spenser and Ashley couldn't make it :(. Though we didn't do too well at bowling, the pictures would say otherwise. Then Riley and Molly spent the night at my house and we talked the night away until we were too tired to talk.... like I said... can we say good times??? I believe we can!
Too bad that all has to end cuz I have to do yardwork for my aunt now :( sad day... oh well i get money so it's all good yo! I hope your all enjoying your summer cuz there's not much left! :(
current mood: energetic
current music: "it's getting hot in here"-umm Nelly?
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12:13 pm - "...SO! YO! HO! WHOOOOO!"
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Fun days past... long days ahead
This past few days have been a blast!! I went to CGST with Riley to stay with Michael for a few days, and may I say good times?!?!?! We did a song and dance for the camper's last Coffee house, slept on the deck underneath the stars, watched rehearsals, got scared by rattle snakes, helped Micheal with all his chores, and met tons of fun new people! I'm considering going there for a week next summer. Then Saturday was dedicated to my momma...pampering her like a little baby. We took her out, gave her a massage, got a manicure and pedicure (along with me and my aunt), then took her to Janey's house for her 50ith suprise party. Sooo many of my relatives were there, it was really fun! You'd be amazed at what a wonderful life she had...you could never tell by looking at her now. You would think that I would be exhausted from all this fun... BUT NO!!! We had a girls night out for Amanda's birthday, and went Cosmic Bowling until 1:00 in the morning!! We had the best time!! Too bad Spenser and Ashley couldn't make it :(. Though we didn't do too well at bowling, the pictures would say otherwise. Then Riley and Molly spent the night at my house and we talked the night away until we were too tired to talk.... like I said... can we say good times??? I believe we can!
Too bad that all has to end cuz I have to do yardwork for my aunt now :( sad day... oh well i get money so it's all good yo! I hope your all enjoying your summer cuz there's not much left! :(
current mood: energetic
current music: "it's getting hot in here"-umm Nelly?
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| Tuesday, July 16th, 2002
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10:10 pm - POOL PARTY? I THOUGHT IT WAS A BIRTHDAY PARTY...
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I guess I was wrong...
Perfect timing to NOT have a bathing suit.. but Aaron kept me company so it was still fun, I just didn't do very much :(
Turns out, my dad's moving again to a cute little house a block off of main street (27th st)... it has a great garage, and with some work it could be an awesome party room!!! So in September, there's gonna be a new hang out after school :). I'm excited for that.. I love decorating houses
"...I'm getting nervous, trying to be so perfect, cuz i know your worth it, your worth it..."
Jen: Thursday through is Saturday booked, and I'm going out of town on the 25th-27th to Universal Studios, then surfing with my aunt the first week of August... so the best time for our Toys R US outing would probably be during the week of the 21st... how's your schedule? Just tell me when to bring my camera
I say you, you and me go to Alicia Keys.. whatdaya say?
Good singers on American Idol make me wanna be a popstar... or maye not. Boy that Justin can perform, I hope he wins!!
I love this hot weather...i get to sit in the sun all day getting nice and brown, enjoying the rays! if only it was like this all year 'round :( Hopefully it'll be hot in Cali.. then i can come back a beach bean haha
Does anyone know Franco's livejournal name??
I want something exciting to happen to make this summer really rememerable!!!!
i'm a hopeless romantic..
current mood: lonely
current music: auntie Carol laughing histerically
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| Monday, July 15th, 2002
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9:40 pm - SUPRISINGLY TRUE
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| Sunday, July 14th, 2002
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12:05 am - "SPRAINED OR BROKEN"
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My arms hurt like a bitch!! Oh my lordy, I can't even lift my right shoulder high enough to grab a box of cereal without me shouting in pain. It's funny though cuz my right shoulder hurts, and my aunts left shoulder hurts, and we were intertubing buddies... she called me and we complained to eachother. haha.
If you've ever seen the movie The Majestic, that's how Kiggins Theatre felt tonight when me and my family went to see Spiderman for the first time. Pretty good movie, but there were some really corny lines. But what a nice body that Toby Maguire has... wooo boy! If only he had a face to go with it. I saw Justin Mcnett with his girlfriend there and i wanted to say hey, but he left pretty quick. Too bad, I miss chatting with that crazy kid.
"I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How i feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes"
Ya know what? I say we all get together July 20th, and go cosmic bowling for Amandar's b-day? Pick a time, bring $5 and let's make it a party!! Whatdaya say? I think we all need some quality time together anyway, so what's better than a b-day party? Who knows what we'll do afterwards, but we have some time to decide that portion. Call me if you are interested... aiight?
"We've got sticky labels if you want... I don't need no stinkin' labels" haha, my aunts a cooke a swear!
My horoscope says that events this weekend teach me to let things happen in thier own time, and to go with my first instinct... hmmmmm i wonder what that might be. Horoscopes can be so mysterious!
current mood:  sore
current music: "Naked"-Avril Lavigne
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| Friday, July 12th, 2002
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10:05 pm - WHY DO YOU INSIST ON BEING ON MY MIND?
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My dad woke me up at 9:30 this morning and told me I had to get ready because my aunt was picking me up in 5 minutes to go boating with my family...so I did! We went to some river/ocean (i can never tell the difference) and took the boat and did some hard core tubing. Me and my aunt were the queens because they couldn't get us off no matter what. I went about 4 times and I can barely type my arms are so sore...but it was sooo much fun! I got a major tan on my arms and my legs are really burnt, so if Spenser thinks he has tan lines... try again! If surfing is as much fun as that, I'm gonna have a hella good time in Cali :) But I think it would have been more fun if it was just all of us... we should really do that sometime. Any of you know how to drive a boat?
"I'm with you"
I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are but I
I'm with you
I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And know one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are but I
I'm with you
I'm with you
Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind...
Avril Lavigne really knows how to put it in words...gotta respect the people like that.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: i would think it was obvious...??
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| Thursday, July 11th, 2002
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10:23 pm - FUN FILLED DAYS
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"I wonder if all girls have as much fun as we do?"... well i doubt it! Spending all day yesterday with Ashley was great! We babysat and went walking in the scorching heat wth Lena, then did crafts at Earth Glaze and Fire which was so much fun! Then we took a stroll to Ice Cream Rennesaince for a Doctor Chocolate renevation. When we got our treat, the table next to us just stared at us while we ate it... so we started liking the fudge and saying things like, "mmmm yummy fudge", and" oh this is so tasty!!".... the look on thier faces was hilarious! not to mention the old guys who shouted at thier windoe at Ashley while she got her freak on on the sidewalk! I swear i have never cried that much from laughing! Then the last few hours of the night we chatted with J.R, talked online, and cried about how sad our loves lives are. I missed having my Starlight around, we had so much fun!
So today was an adventure on it's own because it is the first day I have gotten up at before 11:30 all summer and it SUCKED!... but it did leave me the whole day to have fun :)
After waking up at 7:30 to help babysit with ashley, i went on a lozer buddy journey to Circut City, Toys R US, Starbucks, and Fred Myer.
:motions the letter o:: "O..O..O.. not a word..but a great creation!" haha that was great!
Then off we were to visit Spenser and the crew (including Sysko) at the boys class at C.D.E
"with extra cheese please!" haha, those runs were the best!
We had to leave early so I could get ready for my aunts birthday bbq at my uncle's house... it went pretty well, but I am soooo tired!! I am definatley NOT getting up for anything tommorrow... not even dounuts!
maybe tommorrow will be just as fun as today!!... oh and Ashley, call me about what we're doing with J.R if anything aiight?
i don't know what's going on, and i'm so confused... i mean do we ALWAYS have to know what we want every second of our lives?
current mood: lethargic
current music: "Anything but ordinary"-Avril Lavigne
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